Blogging

I've been wondering lately why I don't update very often. It's not like I have nothing to say, because I do. I've even got a file of interesting articles I've been meaning to write about but haven't. And I can rant about my love/hate relationship with Yahoo indefinately.. Love the email because it works well, hate the groups because it dosen't and IM isn't working tonight which pisses me off, etc. But this page hasn't had a fresh entry in months, even though I've commented on other blogs, and I've been kind of wondering why. It's not as though I'm scrambling for free time or anything.

But that could be a big part of it. I'm spending a lot of time these days working on my resume and trying to not get down on myself because it's taking fucking forever to find steady work. If I were up to my eyeballs the momentum would carry into regular blogging. That's probably why I'm not art blogging anymore as well... I'm just not allowing myself the space to just sit and read and be thoughtful about things that aren't directly related to my job hunt. (I'm aware that I need to let up a bit on The Hunt... If I let myself become obsessive about it, which I'm totally capable of becoming, I'll just drive myself nuts and the search will end up taking longer than it needs to.)

Then I went to my LiveJournal and noticed that I post there at least once a week.

Maybe it's because I know who I'm "speaking" to. The people on my LJ friends list are folks I've been speaking to for a few years now from the Buffy groups on Yahoo. (Which is where my love/hate relationship with the forum began.) And the LJ is something I've always done just for fun. This blog was meant to be a means for me to keep up with my writing. Ironic that I really don't write on it very much.. in many ways it's become another vehicle for advertising for my alumni activities.

I'm keeping both, but I have to think about what I want this blog to be. I had been thinking that I should scrap this one because I really don't use it, but I'm reluctant to do that because I'm sort of attached. We'll see. If nothing else it's a second forum for me to just say what's on my mind...